To my fellow, deep-diving sufferers.  Friends, men and women of a certain age.  There is no doubt that there has been trauma.  There is no doubt that I have put in the time to be aware of and feel my pain.  Even today, I am just in a bad feeling mood and I feel it.

I have looked for connections, sought the blind spots, and tracked the family of origin story back generations.  I looked my abuser in the eye, made my peace, took responsibility where it was mine and released myself for the responsibility of others’ behavior.  I connected with like-minded men and women; I have completed the 4th step in 3 programs.