I had a breakthrough today.
Here’s what I used to visualize in my mind when I thought about changing my habit of overeating.
….I am standing before this huge mountain. It is gigantic and I am very small. It is impassable, covered in craggy rocks. Climbing it would surely cause me pain. I don’t know how to climb mountains. It is impossible. I will just settle down on this side of the mountain forever and ever...
I could not see myself being successful in losing weight and more importantly, being healthy.
Lo, and behold, I was taught to eat on a plan. I thought, “those craggy rocks would actually be good places to get a foothold.”
Then I would obsessively choose something sweet and felt sick and disappointed. I stumbled, it hurt a bit, but I didn’t die. I got up and took another step.
Then the most amazing thing happened. I learned that my thoughts about my eating and myself created feelings. My actions came from those feelings, and my results came because of those actions. I learned I am 100% responsible for my life.
I was taught that every bit of pain was growth. That pain is part of being human. It is expected and doable.
Every inch of that mountain, every obstacle toward health, was only a thought that I believed about myself.
You don’t deserve to be healthy. Yes, I do.
You can’t live without cherry pie. Yes, I can.
You will never succeed in losing weight. Yes, I did.
You know what happened? When I thought again about my habit of overeating, the mountain started to dissolve. It became transparent. It was a projection of my own thoughts and judgments about what I could and could not do. Then it was gone.
Now when I think of my old habit of overeating, I see blue skies.
That mountain is just not there.
How was I able to dissolve the mountain? By taking one step at a time. Looking at one thought at a time.
Being courageous sometimes.
Sometimes moving forward with a whimper.
So what? I learned. Whimper away.
Close your eyes. When you think of your problem of overeating, what do you see?
My breakthrough today was that I can see that your mountain is transparent too.